It’s been a while
Over a month since my last post… I attribute it to being busy, but mostly a sense of despondency with the time change, shorter days, and grey novemeber weather which always seems to bring me down. It’s something I seem to fight every year. It’s hard on me going into work when it’s still dark and leaving work when it’s dark. On top of that, Amanda works longer hours, and things get extremely busy at work, all of which tend to make the days feel like they run into each other. When I get home, I don’t feel like doing much. I tend to feel extra anxious about nothing and have panic attacks over null. It’s a cycle I would like to break, but don’t really know how to do so.
Back in September, after several visits at Washington University’s Sleep Clinic, I stopped taking Effexor which I had been taking for nearly two years to battle my light depression and panic disorder. The withdrawl was slightly tough for a week or two, but my sleep improved almost immediately. My snoring has dropped to non Earth-shattering decibles, and I’m actually able to wake up in the morning. I was told after one of my visits to the clinic that I was waking up an average of 30-something times an hour. So, pros: (1) I’m sleeping better which is improving my life and (2) I’m not quite so emotionally numb. The cons: (1) I’m prone to more bouts of anxiousness and panic and (2) I’m not quite so emotionally numb. I’m hesitant to try something new at this point; I may wait until after the Christmas season and see how this plays out. I don’t like taking pills.
In other news, I’ve watched three movies in the last week: Crash , The Weather Man, and Happy Feet. Crash was fantastic, and if I were a woman, I would’ve cried. The Weather man was fairly good but depressing; after watching it, I sat outside while it was raining and pondered the details of life while Lily napped. Happy Feet was a terribly thought-out movie, but was great because it was the first movie that Amanda and I took Lily to go see. She was great through the whole thing and seemed to really enjoy herself, even though it put her past her bedtime.
Random Tidbits:
-Chris Wallace on Fox Sunday is a total ass.
-Lily can count to 8, but often forgets the number 1
-The Democrats winning “control” of Congress will not result in any major policy changes